Reflection...

Date: 9th March 2005
Time: 2.06am

In an attempt to show how much can happen to a person in short time. I’m penning this…

About 10 years ago…
1. I got into the JC of my choice, finally enjoying the freedom of
not going for lessons!
2. I got to know Joan, Jessie and Rachel who turned out to be my best
frens! Never knew girls can make such great frens!
3. I pierced my 9th ear hole.
4. I went to Denmark and London for the first time, and fell in love
with the places.
5. I can't wait to leave JC and go Uni. already!

About 5 years ago,
1. I stepped into a classroom for the first time, and came out
trying my best not to cry! Wondered why was I there in the first place…sigh!
2. I threw a boy against the wall, and swore never to lose my temper
like that again! At least not at my students!
3. I hid in the toilet and cry for the first time. Just because I really din want to go for lessons in that terrible class!
4. I began to know the joys of teaching! Glad I stick through it!
5. I learnt that lessons in NIE teach the teachers NOTHING! Except to be disciplined enuff to go for lessons on time, which of cos I din not learn at all!

About 3 years ago,
1. I learnt that being a teacher is not jus teaching, you are also an administrator, accountant, planner, coordinator and everything else!
2. I officially became an alcoholic; it was my way of relaxing from stress!
3. I thought I was in love. But I guess not!
4. I had a taste of what it was like to manage a family. Household chores and expenses included.
5. I learnt that frens…you can live without some...and you can’t live without some!
About 2 years ago,
1. I lost my dad to cancer, still miss him so!
2. I was diagnosed with depression…which was totally…DEPRESSING!
3. I went Bali for the first time and fell in love with the place
immediately!
4. I committed a sin…I had overdosed on sleeping pills and alcohol…the worst? Without even realising it! Please forgive me for my foolishness!
5. I had the worse year of my life… trying to cope with everything happening around me!

About 1 year ago,
1. I penned my resignation letter with MOE, decided that enough is enough!
2. I was slapped with tons of debts and no money…and no job!
3. I met Robin Lau…never expect him to become the one man who could bring me happiness that many tried but failed.
4. I am officially off drugs to control my depression and I am coping.
5. I am no longer an alcoholic!

Yesterday,
1. I surfed through the net, looking for the perfect pair of shoes for my wedding.
2. I went flat hunting for my perfect home!
3. I was online chatting with my sister who is staying in Shanghai; and watched my nephew as he puts a cardboard innocently into his mouth like it was a lollipop!
4. I went for lessons as usual at my present workplace…tuition center…yup! I’m still teaching!
5. I realised how much I loved to teach, minus the other nonsense that came along with it in a school!

Tomorrow,
1. I am going flat hunting again…will not stop till I find THE ONE!
2. I hope to find the energy to clear my dad’s flat…it’s so messy I dunno where to start!
3. I will continue my search for my perfect pair of wedding shoes and accessories and last but not least the bubble machine!
4. I have to wake up at 830am to open the door for my cleaning lady…then I’m going back to sleep!
5. I have to mark my worksheets and prepare my lessons for the rest for the week.

1 year later,
1. I will be married to Robin Lau! (Mrs. Lau do sounds funny to me!)
2. I will have my two cats, Hiromi and Kaito with me still…plus a new addition…Roxy the Mini Schnauzer!
3. I will probably be busy trying to divide time between lessons, marking and preparations for lessons!
4. I will have a part time cleaning lady! Yup! I am lazy!
5. I hope to travel to Europe…or at least London!

10 years later,
1. I will be 38 years old!
2. I will be managing a tuition centre that’s well known among the schools in Singapore.
3. I will still be childless…by choice…instead have my pets and my loving husband for company.